Summer

Summer is here once again. Another year has passed and I am living in Biddulph again with Dale. A lot has happened this year- like most years, everything changes. I haven't had any contact with my dad for almost five months. I feel like I have finally got to a place in my life where my efforts, time and energy are better placed elsewhere. All I have of my dad is bad memories and all he brings into my life is negativity. It's sad but it's true and that's life for you- you must deal with the good and the bad and no matter what people tell you about someone being family and being your flesh and blood, you don't have to deal with people you don't want to deal with. I grew incredibly tiresome of my dad and how awful he was at being a parent. He has no time for his children and he constantly pushes them away to pursue relationships and to make extravagant gestures for their families whilst he refuses to acknowledge his own and it was far too painful for me to continue living a life with him constantly being an issue.
In much better news, I have passed my first year at uni. Although the first year 'doesn't matter so much' I am always trying to improve myself, always trying to work hard and push for the best for myself and knowing I have passed makes me really happy and worth all the effort I put into my work. I haven't yet found out my results but I am hoping that they present all of the tearing my hair out.
I would honestly recommend university to anyone. It's true what they say- you go to Uni to find yourself. I have learnt so much about myself this year. I have realised just how passionate I am about acting, drama, the theatre, performing, dancing. I have realised that it is an extremely hard industry to get into and many have negative things to say about it and have a lot to criticize about but I believe it makes you a very strong person. It is an industry that matches my ethos of working hard to reach your goals.
I have made so many memories at University- some good, some bad. However there isn't one thing that I would change. I believe every choice you make frames you as a person- whether you feel quite regretful of your choice or whether you feel happy to have made it. You are the writer of your own life and that's a beautiful thing.

Whether it has been dance competitions with the dance team, crazy nights out with my flat 10 family or rehearsals with some of the most talented people I've ever met I have had an incredible first year and I am so excited to continue my journey at University.

The one thing that I have found hard from moving to Stoke is missing my three beautiful sisters grow up. I am so proud of every small or big achievement they make- they are so unique and crazy in their own, individual ways but they are such lovely girls, it makes me happy to be able to call them family.

Dale and I recently went to Italy. I would genuinely recommend travelling there to anyone. It is the most beautiful, wonderful place. I would live out there. We travelled to a resort called Lido Di Jesolo in the Venetian Riviera. It is bustling with cyclists, restaurants, shops, bars, Gelato shops, everything. We stayed for a week at the Eden Hotel and it was such a friendly, modern place to stay, it wasn't too much or too little of anything. It was well placed and they put on a delicious spread for breakfast. The food in Italy is quite simple but they make the most simplest of meals a delight. I have severe holiday blues after visiting here. I think that this trip was a great thing for me and Dale, we have such busy lives and we sometimes lose sight of the amazing relationship we have. We are both guilty of this but we really shouldn't. Especially after his major car accident in March, you would have thought that I would appreciate everything to it's fullest. Italy was an amazing time for us and I do think you should travel often with your loved ones as you get time for yourselves, its lovely and intimate and it's good for the soul. If you go to Italy- drink lots of aperol spritz, rent a bicycle, try as many bruschettas as your mouth can contain and trust the locals- they too are wonderful people.