Another year has passed..

The last post I wrote was a month ago and I must say it's crazy how much can change in a month.

2014, for me has been a year in which I have learnt more about myself than I thought was possible..
In 2 weeks I will be twenty and I am glad that I am going into the second decade of my life with a much clearer vision of who I am and the type of person I wish to be.
This year has taught me so many lessons, I came into 2014 in a very different situation to the one I am in now.
I have gone through a lot of conflict physically and mentally this year, I have suffered but I have learnt more than anything. I have made many decisions that made me feel very weak at the time but as time has gone on I feel my decisions have helped me grow more and more each day.
This year has taught me that you have to let go of the things and people that make you feel heavy. It has taught me that the harder the times you have, the more you realise the people that deserve to have a place in your life. It has taught me that not everyone is put in your life to stay, they are put there to teach you about yourself whether that means bringing out the best or the worst in you.
This year has taught me that not every relationship is supposed to work out, family or lover or friend, no matter how painful it may be to remove a person from your life sometimes you must do it for your own well-being.
This year has taught me the importance of family. It has taught me to surround myself with good people, good food, good books, good music. To surround myself with as much positivity as possible.
In the past few months I have become a lot less obsessed with my body and I have grown a different type of respect for it. I used to punish myself for eating the wrong things and I'd push myself to exercise even when I felt physically unable, I used to feel horrified some days looking at myself in the mirror and now I have learnt that being healthy and happy is much more important than the girls plastered all over instagram that people wish to be.
I am learning to put myself first and to avoid those that come in and out of my life as they please and bring nothing but negative vibes with them.
I have found that my work ethic is something I wish to take seriously in many areas of my life, I have to work hard to get to the places I want to be.
I have found that whenever you are in a bad place you have to reflect on the changes you have made in the past few months to help you realise how far you have come.
I have learnt that you have to keep pushing forward and that you can get through anything with a glass of wine or a cup of tea.
I have learnt that helping others allows you to hear your own advice and take it onboard even if it is unconsciously.
So I am asking anyone that reads this.. what have you learnt about yourself this year? Do you want to move into the new year with everything as it is now? Are you happy? Only you have the power to give yourself a good life. You should make those around you happy, but if you aren't happy in yourself your negativity will rub off on others.
Remember your silver lining could just be around the corner.
Wishing you all a healthy, happy and memorable 2015.
Thankyou to those who actually take time out reading my blogs/ramblings.
Lots of love xxxxxxxxx